“Fat” not “Fluffy”
It’s no surprise to me that my family in Kansas City is shocked by my appearance and not in a good way. I am, officially, fat. There, I’ve said it and so now my inner circle can rest assured that I know that they know that I know that I’m fat. What can I say? It’s been HELL for me the last 2 years and every pound I’ve put on in fact, hasn’t bothered me all that much. I’ve run 6 marathons for fucks sake (my favorite cuss word from littlemissbossy) the most recent in 2005 and I guess I look at my roundness with less contempt than awe. I am unrecognizable to those who know me best and even more so to myself. But my Ah-Ha moment came on Christmas when after a half day flight from Orange County to Kansas City, my 83 year old grandmummy pulled me aside and suggested Lap-Band surgery. Horrified, I quickly deflected her comment into the joke of the trip which hinged on her Alzheimer’s and my suspicion that she’s watching too much Judge Judy during the day. What can I say? If I’m going to be fat than I’m damn sure going to be jolly too.
I prefer fluffy!!! BUT since I too am fat..I must come to grips that this is the body I have and to deal with it!!! ( But I really have to go back to Weight Watchers..I am a lifetime member!!)
My problem is that I still see my self at 132lbs..aghhh….I will diet again..but not until AFTER my cruise next week!!!!
personally i think it’s crazier to run marathons than to carry a few extra pounds. you look beautiful regardless.
p.s. send me your email addy; the one i had got returned.
Times like this I feel angry at the universe. I think I know JavaJennifer fairly well and can say with certainty she has more drive and determination than I do or anyone else I know. She is seemingly fearless when it comes to trying new things and expanding her world and reaching out to help others. I witnessed her training for her marithons and getting up at O-dark-thirty to run in them. If anyone deserves to be freaking thin already it is Jen! How much stress should one person have to endure! Oh I know lets throw a cherry on the top and call her fat too! JACK ASSES! I can understand being worried about someone and their health, if that is truly the case then you should put forth more effort to make her feel loved, and supported! Jen appears to me to be much more motivated by possitive actions than negative, makes sense doesn’t it!!!?
Jen is my dear friend and I will do my best to remind her of how great she is and that she can accomplish anything she puts her mind to. I believe that more than anything in the world! Who’s with me!?
Think of it this way….You are not fat, fluffy, thick, or the funny one that makes you think twice….My dad’s favorite “You’re not fat, just healthy” AS IF HEALTHY IS A FU***** compliment. I prefer “Jumbo Petite” OR “You just have an angry OMENTUM.” Kiss my ass and pass me one of those delish Pumpkin Puff pastry things of heaven at your local cake shop down the street. Jen, I think about that pastry every now and again….I miss it and you!! See you soon!!